Monday, December 31, 2012
Thursday, December 20, 2012
If today were the last of all days
Would it change how you feel, who you are?
Would you rise for a moment
Above all your fears
Become one with the moon and the stars?
Would you like what you see looking down
Did you give everything that you could
Have you done everything that you wanted to do
Is there still so much more that you hold
Follow your dream to the end of the rainbow
Way beyond one pot of gold
Open your eyes to the colors around you
And find the true beauty life holds
Would you live for the moment
Like when you were young
If time didn't travel so fast
Be free in the present enjoying the now
Not tied to a future or past
Follow your dream to the end of the rainbow
Way beyond one pot of gold
Open your eyes to the colors around you
And find the true beauty life holds
You probably said all you wanted to say
But doesn't that strike you as strange
That we only begin to start living our lives
If today were the last of all days
If today were the last of all days
Of all days.....
Just like what my best friend always say (in my mind) "deal this with God'. And so I prayed and searched Him. Though there were no words coming out of me, I felt our connection and suddenly felt peace. Minutes later, I was reminded of a deep desire that I need to fulfill soon. That was the reason behind why I was disturbed. It was a holy disturbance towards true peace that can only be achieved in the presence of God. Hay, this is Christmas. :)
Disturb us, O Lord when we are too well-pleased with ourselves
when our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little, because we sailed too close to the shore.
when with the abundance of things we possess,
we have lost our thirst for the water of life
when, having fallen in love with time,
we have ceased to dream of eternity
and in our efforts to build a new earth,
we have allowed our vision of Heaven to grow dim.
Stir us, O Lord to dare more boldly, to venture into wider seas
where storms show Thy mastery,
where losing sight of land, we shall find the stars.
In the name of Him who pushed back the horizons of our hopes and invited the brave to follow. Amen.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
this year, just like the past 2 Christmas parties i attended at ISAAA, i came home with lots of gifts!:) and i know, more will come in 2013!
Friday, December 7, 2012
Monday, November 26, 2012
Monday, November 19, 2012
At the middle of the crafternoon that Eyna and I attended, I found God the Crafter. I imagined how God feels whenever he makes a creation. He crafts every person like a masterpiece. Thus, I am His work of art.
And just like a little giddy child, I watch Him craft another life inside me. I can feel and see how joyful He is in adding more cells to my baby, developing each organ, and planting seeds in my baby's heart.
God is so awesome. I'll forever be grateful for this extravagant gift I've got for Christmas.
Our crafternoon pics:
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Last Monday, God granted another prayer-to have a baby soon. I can't believe I'm going to be a mommy! My heart leaps for joy and bliss with this great news. The Lord indeed is sooo good.
To add more sugar to the cupcake, I'm expecting a baby together with my best friend Ching and our dear friend Cheek. :)
Side kwento. Before I got engaged, I had a vision that Ching would be pregnant on my wedding day. And it really happened! Then when Totskie and I got engaged, I had a funny dream that I will give birth this month, which is just 2 mos after our wedding. :)
Monday, November 5, 2012
Monday, October 29, 2012
I bless God every chance I get;
my lungs expand with his praise.
I live and breathe God;
if things aren’t going well, hear this and be happy:
Join me in spreading the news;
together let’s get the word out.
God met me more than halfway,
he freed me from my anxious fears.
Look at him; give him your warmest smile.
Never hide your feelings from him.
When I was desperate, I called out,
and God got me out of a tight spot.
God’s angel sets up a circle
of protection around us while we pray.
Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—
how good God is.
Blessed are you who run to him.
Worship God if you want the best;
worship opens doors to all his goodness.
Young lions on the prowl get hungry,
but God-seekers are full of God.
Come, children, listen closely;
I’ll give you a lesson in God worship.
Who out there has a lust for life?
Can’t wait each day to come upon beauty?
Guard your tongue from profanity,
and no more lying through your teeth.
Turn your back on sin; do something good.
Embrace peace—don’t let it get away!
God keeps an eye on his friends,
his ears pick up every moan and groan.
God won’t put up with rebels;
he’ll cull them from the pack.
Is anyone crying for help? God is listening,
ready to rescue you.
If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there;
if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.
Disciples so often get into trouble;
still, God is there every time.
He’s your bodyguard, shielding every bone;
not even a finger gets broken.
The wicked commit slow suicide;
they waste their lives hating the good.
God pays for each slave’s freedom;
no one who runs to him loses out.
|All praises and glory go to You, my God.|
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Last Saturday, we went to Cavite to accompany my Tito in the turn-over of their house from Will Time Big Time. The event also gave us an opportunity to gather as a family and be thankful. God is sooo good.
Today, I finally went to the parlor to have my hair straightened. I've been planning to do that since after the wedding but it was only today that I gave in with the excuse that it would be a good birthday gift to myself.
I got a surprise blessing today wheb I attended the mass. I saw Laina! We had an instant church date.:) Good thing we arrived a bit early so we had some time to talk be updated about each other. So the whole mass, I was thanking God for that blessing and this opened my heart to more of God's prepared blessings thru the Word of God.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
- My best friend chingching is pregnant!!!:) I'm so excited to see her baby!
- My friend Melai got the job she's been praying for!
- My friend is graduating from college!
- My mom has perfected the cupcake factory yogurt!!!
- We've got a number of orders this week!
- I went back to Rural for our exhibit and felt sooo high school!
- Totskie is not soo busy at work this week (and next week, which is my bday week :D) so we have more time for each other !
- My friend got a "wait" as answer to her prayer, that's a whole lot better than a NO, isn't it?!
- New "babies" to work on in the office before the year ends!
- Alika and Fei are staying with us for the vacation!
Monday, October 22, 2012
Friday, October 19, 2012
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Then this afternoon, my friend Melai and I added another one in our list. But since it is not yet in our hands, we will just pray for it and work hard on it in the next days/months/years. This one is quite hard to achieve but we strongly believe that our God makes all things possible. :)
It's just amazing how God plants these dreams in our hearts to motivate us and inspire us everyday. With much dreams in our lists, we have more fuel to push on and fight hard 'till the end of our days. God is sooo good and loving to have created dreams to put rainbow colors in our lives.
Bless our hearts O Lord, that our ultimate dream is to be with You everyday and forever. Amen.
*A line from a song composed by Beef Cake, a band from UPRHS :D
Monday, October 8, 2012
1. Accomplished morning wifey tasks: cooking breakfast for totskie, preparing his clothes and stuff
2. Accomplished office tasks: reportssss
3. Another unexpected gift
4. Complete requirements for a joint account (which I just found from old files)
5. Accomplished evening wifey tasks: a surprise welcome home banner for totskie, preparing his clothes, heating water for his bath
6. Sweet family prayertime
Thursday, October 4, 2012
2. Yummy breakfast at home (Last night, Totskie said that when we already have kids, they will choose home-cooked food than food from restos or fast foods because they will taste the best meals at home.)
3. Meetings galore turned sipag mode on
4. Paid bills
5. Friendly bank manager at Metrobank, Los Banos
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Sunday, September 30, 2012
My final gratitude list for this month:
- Kuya is with us in one full month. We've been looking forward to Kuya's arrival since he left two years ago. Our weekends with him and his family made us feel like it's already Christmas.
- Wedding preps. I've been planning about my wedding since time immemorial. I love preparing surprise birthdays for friends, managing events, and doing DIYs. Though the passed months have been busy, I loved every minute of our preps.
- The Wedding, of course. Hayyyy...:) Gratefulness to the highest level!!! I'm super thankful about everything... the weather, the suppliers, the guests, the super friends, our families and relatives, and of course, I'm so at bliss that Totskie is now my husband.
- Our honeymoon trip. Finally, our dream vacation came to reality right after the wedding.
- Lolo is with God now. :,)
- Kuya is on his way back to Riyadh and we'll see him again in 9-10mos. :D
Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Papa's last living memory of lolo was last july, when we went home to visit him. Lolo was singing then, though he looked frail and weak already.
My last memory was last December, when lolo jokingly said that when I come back I might have 2 kids already. Because of dementia, he thought that Alika is my daughter.
I never look at the corpses during funerals because I want to remember the dead as how they looked when they were still living. But now, I look at lolo every time and his living memory never fades away.
Thanks for living a full life, Lt. Rizal Natividad.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Last night, totskie and I prayed together before we slept. We asked God to sustain the joy we have no matter what because our joy is already complete with Him. Then this morning, while on our way to our next destination, I received a message from my mom. My dear lolo passed away. Sadness embraced me in an instant but peace never left my side. I know He's in a better place right now. No more pain, no more sorrow. I'm grateful to him for living 94 years of being a hero not just for our country but also for us his family. I know he waited for my wedding to pass before he left.
I love you lolo. You will always be our hero.
I think I'm thanking God every ten seconds lately but I know that's not yet enough to express how grateful I am. God has been so good and gracious to us for making our dream come true. In every silent minute I remember a person who helped us start our marriage. May the good Lord bless the hearts of those people.
Yes, my wedding was everything sunshine. :D
(Watch our growing up avp here.)
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Last Friday was my last day of work before my long vacation for the wedding. Before I left the office, my boss/Ninang-to-be called me to come into her room. She asked me about our preps and gave some inspirational advice on marriage.
Then this morning, I receive a personal message in Facebook from one of our ninangs. And she wrote:
"...Preparing for weddings is an easy task, an exciting one at that. it is the preparation that brings closer relationships, cooperation, and more love... as you journey through your marriage always remember all the preparation you had. remember how fun it was. remember the people who had been with you until that very day you say your "i do's"... they will be there for you and toto no matter what. remember that your partnership had been blessed with prayers by these people. remember this letter and say... "nag effort si ninang para sa kin". and the only reason i want you to remember these is to give you a reason to stick it out with toto no matter what.This is so touching. It feels so assuring that we'll have a guided marriage because we will be backed up by a group of people who believe in marriage and in the One who creates marriages.
always pray for your husband, forgive and get to know him day by day. always look at the things that you can give instead of the things that he has to give. it will make you feel a whole lot better about yourself. i know you already know about these things but sometimes we need a lot of reminding be a partner, a bestfriend, and a mistress (hehe!) rolled into one... but the most important thing is to be reminded of the reason why God had put you together. only both of you would know what task God wants to accomplish through both of you... discover that TOGETHER. no one is better than the other... no one has a higher purpose. no one has "more points" in heaven than the other. and your union will prove that.
isn't marriage great! it is a never ending story... continue to tell your "story" and inspire people around you. and just like any other story, it will have its twists and turns... but more chapters can be written and you never have to close the book. God is the greatest author, allow him to write... never take the pen or twist His hands to let him write your thoughts. i'm so glad to be part of some of those chapters... my name is written on them. so it means you can always look back, search my name, and be reminded of how much you mean to me. "
Friday, September 14, 2012
We fetched my brother's family from their home to spend another weekend with us. We were surprised because they brought 2 luggage bags to our house. My brother said they're gonna spend the week in our house to help us in our wedding preps. :D
Looooong weekend ahead. Thank you Lord my brother is here. :) And we're complete on my wedding day.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
And yesterday, I read a post from another bride-to-be friend, and I quote:
"I may not enjoy the setbacks while they’re happening, but I trust that when something major happens, it is serving a purpose and that it’s for my highest good."It reminded me a lot about the wedding and placed me back on the right perspective. Thanks to that friend, and to whoever gave her that realization. :D
So this morning I asked the Lord to help me not turn into a zilla in the coming days, that His will be done and may my heart be open to His plans no matter what.
"Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be done according to your word." Luke 1:38
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Here are just some of those granted prayers/blessings:
- I is going back to school with scholarship
- F got the job she was praying for
- M is now a director in her MLM biz
- My brother went home after being away for 2 years for work
- I'm getting married in less than two weeks :D
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Friday, August 31, 2012
It's been a busy week in the office. This means larger eyebags and less time for wedding preps. Before I went home this evening, I had the biggest smile ever...because I reached my goals. Sent 3 reports and 2 write ups for our upcoming publication. Now I have more time for wedding preps. :)
It feels good also that our family is really complete on weekends. Kuya is home and we could not ask for anything more than his jolly presence.
Thanks so much Lord. You fill me to the brim.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
“I believe in the sun, even though it doesn’t shine.
I believe in love, even when it isn’t shown.
I believe in God, even when he doesn’t speak.”
“We set our eyes not on what we see but on what we cannot see. What we see will only last a short time, but what we cannot see will last forever.” -2 Corinthians 4:18
(from Max Lucado's UpWords)
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
For me, she's a big bundle of joy, of blessing, and of grace. She indeed lived by her name Alika Carys, which means most beautiful love. Thank You Jesus for this love.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
When I woke up, I shouted "D'yos ko, salamat po panaginip lang pala 'yun!" :)
May we all be reminded that we are never alone. Jesus is always there to pursue us non-stop. Jesus is always there to laugh with our joys and cry with our sorrows. Jesus is here. May we have our sweetest dreams tonight with Jesus, the Greatest Lover we could ever have.
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
Meeting one of my favorite YFC titos. One of the best things about our wedding preps is that having the chance to see old friends during distribution on invites. Since work was cancelled in the afternoon, we headed to San Pablo to visit one of our Ninongs-Tito Bobot. It was a joy to see him again and hear his punchlines. That man really made a mark in my life and I will forever be for him for adding color to my life.
FB page. :) As soon as I finished dinner, I opened my HN packages to repack them. HN makes me feel giddy to take a bath in the morning and clean up in the eve. Their products are so bangoooo making you feel so fresh, clean, and pretty all the time.
Totskie's suit, check!!! Men are so unbelievable. Totskie thought of passing by SM to check the suits at Onesimus. In less than 15mins in the store, he had already chosen which coat, pants, and tuxedo shirt he would buy. I didn't want to check him while he was fitting the suit but I had no choice. So I just stored his looks in my short term memory so I would still be surprised about how he'll look like on our wedding day.
Devotional reading. It says that we must simply our lives to magnify God. So let's check our old clothes in stock and give them to our needy neighbors affected by this heavy rain.
Monday, August 6, 2012
So let me enumerate the best blessings I got this weekend:
MOM'S COMFORT. My mom is the best comforter next to God. Though there were times when we don't agree with some issues but when we're talking about deep serious heart matters, my mom really knows what's best and how to express her motherlily care to the maximum.
TITA LINDA and Totskie's relatives. We visited Totskie's aunt/our soon-to-be ninang, Tita Linda, last Saturday. She's one of our wedding consultants. We told her about our plans and I was just so amazed about how she can add more colors and glitters to our plans. And while we were in their house, two other Titas were there to share our excitement about the wedding. With special number pa ni Rowill, Totskie's cousin and our Bible bearer. He just won 3rd place in a school declamation contest. Super galing, he must have been the 1st placer!
TITA SYLVIA and JO. We had lunch with Toskie's mom and brother at Chowking, the best fast food in the Philippines. Hehe. Then we went to their house to fix the invitations for their relatives and look for Totskie's (super funny) childhood pics. I won't elaborate on how he looked then, I'll just post the video after the wedding. :D
MY COUSIN, BEVS. She used to stay with us last year from September to December while she was looking for a job. She's like a little sister for me. :) And after her work contract ended last summer, she's now back to LB to look for a job. She had her interview this morning and she'll start training tomorrow. God is gooood!
HUMAN <3 NATURE. Thanks to Eyna, I'm now a dealer! I love their products and I also share their beliefs about our country. :D Gumaganda ka na, nakakatulong ka pa sa Filipino farmers, san ka pa!
Hay...life is good. Even if it's raining. :) Thank You, Jesus.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
I've been planning to sleep early (11pm is early is our home) starting this week but I've failed for the last 2 days. I'm just so thankful that tonight I could sleep early. I've been on my bed since 10:30 and I just embraced rest. Some things are also not in proper places now but I thank the Lord for the unquestionnable peace that He has given me. Jeremiah 29:11 speaks wonders to my heart once again.
Yes God, I know that You know what You are doing. And I trust you.
Monday, July 30, 2012
P.S. I showed the post to my father who does not understand the concept of engagement pictorial up to now. Sabi n'ya, "Ano 'yan nagbebake?" Sabi ko, "Opo, pero kunyari lang." Then he saw the 3rd pic, "Ano yun may nagbebake bang nagyayakapan???" Hahaha. My KJ gene came from my father. Azar lang.
Saturday, July 28, 2012
I don't know if fitting is the proper term pero nagpasukat na ko. (Measuring ba?) Haha. I just feel good (di pa great) that I have lost 14lbs since we first visited my couturier in Lumban. And now I have a month to lose weight for the next fitting. Yes, pahirapan sa pag-aadjust ang mananahi. :)
Then we headed to Caliraya Springs for the food tasting. Instant na ang pagkuha ng pics pag pumupunta kami. Yes, bitin pa sa prenup shoot. The place is just lovely. Especially today that we have imagined the details of the reception. By the way, the food is good as well.
And the Farenting practicum. Before we headed to Lumban and Cavinti, we fetched Alika first. So nanay mode and bride-to-be at the same time. :D I just thank God that she slept whenever I told her to and woke up whenever I wanted her to. My niece must be awarded as the "Most Cooperative" kid in this house today. When I was watching a movie (of Sarah and Gerald, yes I'm a fan), she grabbed the laptop from me and kissed Gerald! Another Ashrald in the making. And now she's sleeping soundly while I'm doing some tasks for the wedding. Very good, Alika.
Grateful Saturday everyone!
Thursday, July 26, 2012
|This pic was taken ~14 years ago. Ram!!! (Thanks to Krista for the pic)|
|Sssshhh...Don't tell Totskie about this, baka maging Hulk! :D|
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Special thanks to my friends Ishi and Gail who helped me big time to finish the invites. Of course their presence and laughter added color into these invites. Next time ulit ha?!:)
I also thank God for Clem, my office mate and friend, who did the calligraphy for our Save the Date and invitation envelopes. Super galing n'ya, idol level. :) She's a famous blogger of fountain pens and notebooks. Take a look at her blog here.
Walang stressed na bride-to-be kung maraming ever helpful and loving friendships. ;)
|Save the Date! Calligraphy by Clem of http://archer-rantings.blogspot.com/|
|Calligraphy by Clem of http://archer-rantings.blogspot.com/|
Monday, July 23, 2012
The following day, I also delivered another talk to the leaders of our sector about zeal and single mindedness for God. The topic made me reflect about my devotion to serve the Lord which started when I was really young, attending Sunday school of Bread of Life and Kids for Christ activities. It's really not enough that we're good and striving for our own holiness. All such efforts will be in vain unless we bring souls to Christ. I guess, that would be my last talk in Singles for Christ, but I'm sure that Totskie and I will be serving together in Couples for Christ in the near future. :)
I spent the whole day of Sunday at home, watching X-men marathon in HBO, eating popcorn and avocado, and finishing our DIY invites. Gratefulness consumes me.
Choose today whom you will serve...as for me and my family, we will serve the Lord. Joshua 24:15
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
With these friends supporting us, I feel so grateful to God. Feeling ko these friendships are the most valuable gifts for our wedding, of course for our marriage. Weee. :D
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Monday, June 11, 2012
We will miss you Lola. Thanks for building a God-fearing clan. You will be missed, especially on our day. Surely you'll have the best view of our wedding from up there. Thanks for believing in us. Thanks for all the love.
Sunday, June 10, 2012
Then yesterday morning, Totskie's mom called to tell us that his Lola is in critical condition. Just like me, Totskie has only one grandparent left. Just days ago, we decided that we would add her to our wedding entourage as an honor to her. She has always been supportive of us, giving advice each time we visit her.
Hay Lola Yed, please wake up today. But if you're too tired already, we'll understand. May God embrace you with His love always. We are praying for you.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
And so we met at KFC. The kids were jumping for joy when they entered the door. Before we ate, I asked the oldest kiddo to lead us in prayer. Yumi said: Lord, thank You po kasi ginamit po Ninyo si Teacher Tin na maging instrument para makakain po kami sa KFC...
I felt guilty that I felt burdened about my treat for the kids. Yumi is right, I am just God's instrument and so God will always provide. God will always equip us so we are never empty handed in blessing others.