Thursday, December 11, 2014

Memory Full

One month after I gave birth,  we went to the hospital for my baby's check up. While we were waiting outside the pedia's clinic, a man walked in front of us and greeted me with a wide smile. I knew during that moment that I know him personally but I could not recall who he is. It was as if I had slight amnesia. Good thing he went to the other clinic and did not speak to me.

I turned to my husband and asked him, "Kilala mo 'yun?". He said no. I asked him if he was at least familiar to him. He still said no. And so I tried my best to recall, but to no avail.

A few minutes later, He-who-i-cannot-name Kuya sat beside me and said, "Baby mo?" 

I said yes, and looked intently at his clothes to search for clues about his identity.

He looked at my husband and asked,
"Asawa mo? Ruralite din ba siya?" 

*Ting!* I knew then the answer! He was our school's security guard.

Moments like that happened several times since I got pregnant, and much more after I gave birth. It could be due to the anaesthesia for my C-section. I also read in an article that pregnant women and new mothers tend to be forgetful because so many things are happening to them that they give so little attention for the unimportant ones. 

Our memories are like camera phones. When we are notified that there's no more space to save new pictures, we delete the insignificant images but keep the precious ones. And that is what God is calling us to do everyday. Leave behind the irrelevant part of our past, and treasure the best moments. Trash out all the regrets and resentments, but keep the lessons you've learned. Never mind how bad you fell, but hold on to the memory of God holding you tight in that moment. And never forget that, because He is still holding you now just the same, and will forever be loving you like that.

I remember the days of old; I meditate on all that you have done; I ponder the work of your hands. Psalm 143:5

(Published in Feast Binan Bulletin December 13, 2015)

Sunday, November 30, 2014

I'm going back to school

I'm pursuing graduate studies at UP Diliman Mass Comm. :) I just passed the exam and interview last week. Weeee! It's a dream come true! I'm so thankful to God for guiding me thru the process and for building me up for what will be in store for me for the coming years.

I just want to say that God really speaks to us everyday if we just let Him. I'm quite worried about my schedule next year (alternating tasks between family, service, work, and studies) but God led me to an article about Korina Sanchez. Can you imagine such article to be filled with God's message???

Korina said, "My advanced studies have taken the backseat for too long and if I don't do this now, I may never. Kaya nga pinagsabay-sabay ko na. It's not easy but I'm optimistic I can do this." 

And then her boss commented,"Many in our stable have also taken leaves of absence to pursue further studies. When they come back, there is always better output."

Here's more from UPD masscom CR vandal:




I am uncontainable.

Saturday, November 8, 2014

I love Saturdays

If you decide that it’s a bad thing to worship GOD, then choose a god you’d rather serve—and do it today. Choose one of the gods your ancestors worshiped from the country beyond The River, or one of the gods of the Amorites, on whose land you’re now living. As for me and my family, we’ll worship GOD. Joshua 24:15

Every week, I look forward to Saturdays. Not because it's a day of rest from work (it's actually my busiest) or it's a day for leisure. It's because of The Feast. We've been attending the Saturday Feast for over a month now and we've been truly blessed by God's Word and the people we encounter there. 

It's an intimate time for our family as well. We worship together, we learn together, we feast on God's presence together. Every Feast is a moment worth treasuring. 


Kaitlin is also enjoying the experience! She sings, raises her hands, and dances to the worship songs. It's a great joy seeing her savoring a life with God at a very young age. I pray that God will capture her heart all the days of her life. 


Totskie and I feel so blessed with the humility of the people there. The priest listens to the preacher after he celebrates the mass. The preacher talks to us like a friend. He also waits on the door after the  activity so he could say goodbye to the attendees. Wow lang, it's really a piece of heaven on earth. 

I pray that we would be able to attend and serve there every week. It's a challenge but we trust in God that He will be with us in this journey. 

I also thank God that we'll be attending the Kerygma conference this year! I've been wanting to attend in the previous years and finally that dream will be a reality in a few weeks. I'm so excited because it's the first time that we will attend an inspirational conference as a family. Thank You thank You Lord!!!



P.S. Join us at the Feast Binan every Saturday 6pm at 3F Central Mall.

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Blessings undercover

There was this one time when I was looking for my comb before leaving house. I looked all over my room and other parts of the house but I still could not find my comb. I knew that the comb was just around because I have combed my hair after taking a bath. With all time and patience depleting, I went out of the house to attend my class. At the waiting shed, our neighbor told me, "Tin, may suklay ka pa sa buhok." 

My gosh. I looked all over but I failed to look at myself. 

This is just like the story of our blessings that went undercover. Sometimes we think we lack a lot of things. We think that our prayers are unanswered. Parang napabayaan na tayo ni God. But if we really look closer at things and situations, we are still (constantly) infinitely blessed. 

Like for instance, we've been praying for work for Totskie for over a year now.  There are times when I feel like God is not hearing my request. Until Kaitlin's yaya said she needs to go back to her family. I realized that God delayed the answer to my prayer because He was thinking of Kaitlin. And Totskie has been closely taking care of her. If Totskie and I both have jobs in her young age, she might not be as jolly and healthy as she is right now. 

Now I get it when they say that our pain can be blessings. It's just like a two-sided card, one can bring goodness and the other suffering. And all we have to do is to flip up the card on its sunny side.

Life is happy. 😀

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Running towards Him

Since we had Kaitlin, I rarely attend mass with full attention. Kaitlin would always want to walk and play during the mass as if the church is her little theme park. 

Today was quite different because she didn't want to walk around. She just wanted Mommy. But still it was tiring and she needed attention just the same. After the communion, Yaya took her from me so I could rest a little. Then when she saw me again, she came walking fast towards me. She didn't mind the path she was walking on because she was so focused on reaching me and be in my arms again. Then a realization hit me. We could just like be a baby running towards mommy in our journey towards God. I felt a different kind of "longing bliss" when I saw Kaitlin walking towards me. What more for God, who always expects us to turn to Him in every situation. He's always waiting and longing with arms wide open, and ready to catch us in case we trip on some obstacles along the way. 

Saturday, November 1, 2014

But I do more than thank*

When I listed down my top 10 birthday blessings, I realized that half are treasured relationships. These relationships fuel me to be a better person. They are my everyday birthday gifts. So I silently prayed for each one of them. I asked God to bless them and may they continue to grow more in love with God. 

*That’s why, when I heard of the solid trust you have in the Master Jesus and your outpouring of love to all the followers of Jesus, I couldn’t stop thanking God for you—every time I prayed, I’d think of you and give thanks. But I do more than thank. I ask—ask the God of our Master, Jesus Christ, the God of glory—to make you intelligent and discerning in knowing him personally, your eyes focused and clear, so that you can see exactly what it is he is calling you to do, grasp the immensity of this glorious way of life he has for his followers, oh, the utter extravagance of his work in us who trust him—endless energy, boundless strength!

Ephesians 1:18 MSG


Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Happy Kid

She's growing up fast. And happy. Thanks to her magnificent Creator.

Monday, October 27, 2014

Feasting on God's blessings

We've been attending the Saturday Feast at Central Mall Binan for several weeks now. It all started with a simple conversation with Totskie. I told him I wanted to attend The Feast. He asked the details and said yes! (I'm spoiled like that.:p)

We enjoy it so much and we feel cared for by the people serving the Feast. It was not easy to go to Binan every weekend but it's just worth the time, effort, traffic, and money. I really pray that we would be able to attend every week. The experience really fuels me. But the best part is that I feel much closer to God. I always keep in mind that above all the experience, He's the reason for everything. Kahit saan bida si God, masaya dun. 


Monday, October 20, 2014

Pajama Party

I'm It's been a while since I last had a slumber party with girl friends. But last night, I had one with my "boyfriend". We went to bed before 10pm and started chatting about anything we could think of. Alright, we do that almost every night but last night we ended at around 1am. We laughed, I cried, we prayed, and we hugged a lot. I just felt so grateful that even if our lives aren't perfect, we still love like that. Like there's no tomorrow, and now is forever. 

Btw, it was our first house monthsary hihi

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

OMG

My boss talked to me privately. She asked me how long I can stay away from my baby for an official trip. I didn't know the answer because I was thinking why was she asking me such question. And she answered what's on my mind. It's not yet official but she's cooking up an opportunity for me. And I know God is behind all these. THANK YOU LORD!!!!

Monday, September 29, 2014

In Two Years, I Loved You

It's been two years since we said "I do!" Time flies and I can't believe that a lot of things happened in those two years. Of course the best part of it is having Kaitlin as part/product of our marriage. I thank God that even if we know more about each other now and we fought like cat and mouse, at the end of the day, we still chose to love and be loved. Again, all through God's grace. We couldn't have made this far without God. Totskie was not easy to love and so was I. But God made sure that we continue to stand by each other. 


And yes, Totskie is still my number 1 baby and forever will be. 

Prayer and talk time

Almost every night, Totskie and I pray and talk before we sleep. Most of the time, he leads the prayer and I lead the chikahan. Hehe. Last weekend, I told Totskie about a person that irritates me lately. He comforted me and gave me a very honest advice. Then, he prayed for me to overcome my struggle.

The following night, we talked about our relationship with God and how we both miss serving Him. 

La lang. I just want to thank God for my husband, my best friend, and my prayer partner. May He continue make us grow together in His love. 


Tuesday, September 23, 2014

New Home

This is what I've been praying for about a year-to have a home of our own. God answered that prayer exactly on September 20, 2014, our 2nd year wedding anniversary. One thing I learned about this journey is that some prayers need effort from God and from us as well.  Yes, I've been asking this from God but I did not really decide that I will embrace the answer to this prayer. The moment I asked it again with full conviction that I wanted it, God instantly said a resounding "Yes!" 

This was true up to the moment I selected the right house for us. We've been waiting for another house but it seemed that God did not want us there. After we have seen this one, I could not stop imagining living inside it. We took our sweet time and searched for another house until the day I finally chose this. By God's leading, the house was still available even if it has been 2 weeks since we viewed it. 

Now we are really living on our own. All of these happenings are God's grace. And so I thank Him with all my heart. You the best, Our Father! 

Welcome to our receiving room 😄

We can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit! Romans 5:5

PS I also thank God for the book Starting Your Marriage Right. It spoke wonders to my wifely heart. 

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Shhhhhh


Kaitlin was shouting during the mass so we told her to keep quiet using the "Shhh" gesture. After a few minutes, a family with a baby sat next to us. The baby got fond of the silence as well and started shouting. Kaitlin faced the baby and said "Shhhh!" Lols.

Monday, September 8, 2014

Mama Mary

I rescheduled my Tuesdate today to celebrate Mama Mary's birthday. When I said my greetings to her, it was as if I was talking to a loved one, whom I have lived with in flesh. I can close my eyes and see her embracing me or stroking my hair as I fall asleep. 

Mama Mary has been a mother to me especially in the darkest times of my journey towards God. Our latest adventure was when I was in labor for Kaitlin. I knew she was holding my hand and praying for me. And the best part of it was that I felt comforted because I knew she knows how it all felt.

Thank You Lord for giving us Mary as our perpetual help, our mother, our intercesor.


PS I named Kaitlin after Mama Mary. Mikayla, Kaitlin's second name, is a variant of Mary. :) I love you Mama Mary!

Saturday, September 6, 2014

God in control

I was about to sleep when Mae (Katy's nanny) told me that Mama's BP was high and that she might need to go to the hospital. I was not surprised because it would be the second time this week that she had high BP at this time of the night. I went to Mama's room to check on her. She seems ok yet fearful. I asked her what happened and she said she just watched a drama. Oh. So I told her to calm herself, watch a good show or play Candy Crush. I went back to our room to nurse Katy and pray. 

I asked God to take control of thw situation. I have no control over Mama's BP so I lay it all on Him. 

After about 20 minutes, I checked her BP again and it's beginning to decrease. I attended to her other calming needs and gave her a reassurance that she'll be ok in a while.

I went back to our room and prayed again. Then Mae sent me a text message that Mama's BP was high again. 

I let another 15 minutes pass while praying and checked Mama's BP again. It's back to normal. 

Prayers never fail. God is always in control. He knows what He's doing.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

Published

Yey our article has been published! Thank You Lord!!! Muah!!!


Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Tuesdates

Ever since I became a mom, I placed more value for dates and relationships. Basically because most of my time is devoted to Kaitlin, and a little percentage is left for others such as time for leisure or dates with friends. So as much as possible, I set dates during lunch breaks.

For more than a month now, I've been meeting someone every Tuesday lunch. No, we don't dine together but we talk a lot. 

Every Tuesday, I go to church, and meet with God. 

I believe in the value of relationships. I belive in putting value in relationships. My relationship with God is the most important one I've got so the highest value must be put onto it. Thus, I spend time with Him. We bond together.

This Tuesday is a challenging one. It's raining and I just had my period (after almost 2 years). Going to work was a struggle, and even going out to walk towards the church. It was very tempting to say, "God, pass muna ako." But it felt sweeter to push thru. And so now I'm on my way to my date with Him. I know it's gonna be worth it.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Katy's Healer

Katy has been sick for 5 days now. For the first 3 days, she was her usual jolly and playful self. Until yesterday, she looked lethargic so I decided to bring her to the doctor for check up. The pedia said that if there's no progress after 2 days of medication for cough and colds, she has to take antibiotics. We did not notice progress yesterday, but when she woke up this morning, our jolly Katy is back! Praise and glory to my baby's Healer! Thank You Lord for hearing our prayers. Now we don't have to give her antibiotics.:)) 


PS Thank You Lord for the long weekend! I had more time to cuddle and nurse my baby. :)

I'm back

I know. I have not posted anything for more than a month. So many things have happened including Glenda, Kaitlin's birthday, and office deadlines. But now I'm back with full pack of blessings on my hands. Here are just some of them:
• Katy is already 1 year and 1 month old! Time flies sooo fast. But if I would recall the details of the past year, I would say that everything has been grace. Kaloka pala maging mommy! Yet very rewarding. Until now I still can't believe I have Kaitlin.  I would give all the credit to my God who have been planning and working on this beautiful blessing all along. 


• Life after Glenda. It was the most fierce typhoon I've ever experienced my whole life. Though we were not affected ala-Yolanda level, I could still consider that it was a bad hit. Our office was closed for 5 days, there was no water for almost a week, our electricity was cut off for 3 weeks, and our internet connection was gone for almost a month. It could have been easy to handle such issues if Kaitlin was not in the picture. But because we want her comfortable as much as possoble, we had to deal with the issues. We went sleeping to different places (our in-laws' house in Binan, Totskie's relatives in Binan, my brother's house and even at City of Springs). 


After 2 weeks of transferring from place to place,  we finally decided that we stay in Binan until power was restored. I had to commute from Binan to LB and back and this gave me only ~3hrs left a day with Kaitlin. I would usually leave when she's still sleeping and would arrive when it's almost her sleeping time. The busy schedule also lowered my body defenses against sickness so I got sick by the end of that week. But the best part of that phase was that I had more time with God. I enjoyed every moment of my me-time with God. He revealed Himself to me in a different light.

• Preparing for the move out. I've been praying for months that God would enable us to live on our own. It's the best setup up for all married couples. My mom has already given us her blessing as well as our old sala set. Haha.

• Getaway with friends. Day before Carla's wedding, we stayed at Casa San Pablo. It was our family's first getaway with my high school barkada. Ang saya!



That would be all for now. Thank You Lord for holding me tight! 


Sunday, July 13, 2014

Elephant love

I love elephants. They are so big, yet they don't step on others. When you look at their eyes, your heart will be filled with compassion because you will see their humility. Elephants remind us to stand on the ground and see others as co-creation. We are all loved by One big God!

photo from pinterest

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

It's a NO

I received an email from the company I applied in last week. They said that I came up as one of the choices for the position, BUT they have chosen another candidate for the final interview. Sayangs. Anyway, I accept this defeat with peace because I trust that the Lord allowed this for a great purpose. So I thank Him in advance for whatever our future holds. 

Sige lang God. I know You know what You are doing.

P.S. Thank You po pala sa meal allowance na binigay nila. hehe.

Monday, June 30, 2014

God's Place

There are times when prayer means silence. There's no need for words. Just me and God. Alone. In silence. In an embrace. And that's the only time when I feel so complete and whole. 

Prayer is presence. God's presence and yours in one place. And that place, wherever you are is a part of heaven.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Extra challenge

This week, I took a challenge that I have not done for about five years-I attended a job interview. The interview took about 30 minutes and the 3-part exam took 4 hours! It was a tough challenge because I had to do so many tasks in a limited time and a different environment. 

I don't know the result yet but when I went out of the building, I felt pride smilling at me. I didn't know I could do such tasks. And I didn't know I'm confident now more than ever.

Thank You Lord for the challenge. Even if I don't get the job, at least I know I've grown up.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Bittersweet Dreams

Not all dreams are sweet. Some dreams just need to happen so we can wake up to God's sunshiny promise. 

Peace does not equate to happy and quiet. Jesus was still amidst the storm. 

If these are the answers to Your prayers, keep me still, Lord. I want to surrender to Your will. I want to be with You in the morning.

But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired, they walk and don’t lag behind. PSALM 40:31

Monday, June 16, 2014

Fuel for Worship

We are taught to use ACTS (adoration, contrition, thanksgiving, supplication) as prayer pattern. I've tried to use this for so long yet I find adoration the hardest part. I'm not saying that the pattern is wrong, it's just that the pattern does not fit me. TACTS works better for me because above all the parts, thanksgiving is the easiest, at least for me. We would always find a blessing to be thankful for. And then because we realize that we are so blessed, we come to know God. We get food and shelter, so we could shout He's a great provider. We find comfort in His presence, and so we praise Him for stooping down to our level and become our bestest best friend. Then I ask for forgiveness.

The last part is actually thanksgiving/supplication. Because I'm confident that my God will answer my prayers in the best way He knows, I thank Him in advance. Instead of demanding, "Lord, please give me a house and a car...", we can simply say "Lord, I thank You in advance for the house and car that you are about to give me." That makes me feel closer to God as well. Close kami eh so I can express such prayers. :D

So the next timw you find it hard to pray, start with saying THANK YOU LORD!

GOD makes everything come out right*

I've been praying something for a long time now...And finally I've come to a decision that gives me peace. That's my indicator that the Lord will be with me all the way. 

Thank You Lord for this peace. Thank You for holding my hand today. You are my fortress. You are my shield. You are my refuge. 

*GOD makes everything come out right; he puts victims back on their feet. He showed Moses how he went about his work, opened up his plans to all Israel. GOD is sheer mercy and grace; not easily angered, he’s rich in love. He doesn’t endlessly nag and scold, nor hold grudges forever. He doesn’t treat us as our sins deserve, nor pay us back in full for our wrongs. As high as heaven is over the earth, so strong is his love to those who fear him. And as far as sunrise is from sunset, he has separated us from our sins. As parents feel for their children, GOD feels for those who fear him. He knows us inside and out, keeps in mind that we’re made of mud. Men and women don’t live very long; like wildflowers they spring up and blossom, But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly, leaving nothing to show they were here. GOD’s love, though, is ever and always, eternally present to all who fear him, Making everything right for them and their children as they follow his Covenant ways and remember to do whatever he said. -Psalm 103:13 MSG


 

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

New Project

I believe in the importance of the scientific method. To answer a question or a problem, we must learn to conduct some sort of an experiment, collect and record data, and draw conclusions. This method is also applicable to our daily lives. And today, I started another gratefulness project.

BLESSINGS IN BOTTLE


Materials:
Empty glass bottle
Colorful papers
Pen

Methodology:
1. Clean the bottle. Write at the bottom of the bottle the date when you started the project.
2. Think of something to be thankful for.
3. Write it on a colorful piece of paper.
4. Fold the paper.
5. Drop inside the bottle.
6. Repeat every moment you receive a blessing.
7. When the bottle becomes full, read and count each entry.
8. Share to your friends the result!

Yes, we are blessed beyond measure. But there's no harm in measuring it. Believe me, you will feel more blessed in counting the blessings that you have.


Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Imagine: Eternal Victory

Can you imagine a life without failure but only victory over victory? Wow. Sounds like heaven for me.

“For the Commanding General-God is so committed in His love of the subject-world, that He unleashed His only begotten Champion-Son; that whoever rallies behind Him and joins His Army will not lose life’s battle but will have eternal victory.” -Jn3:16 (reworded by Obet Cabrillas in Didache)

Thank You Lord for saving us. Thank You for the life after this. I heard there would be no pain there. I'd love to have that.

Househelp

I'm writing this post while listening to our househelp sing inside the bathroom. She's a few points better than Anne Curtis I must say. But I'm very fond of listening to her because she sings (or shouts) without a care to the world. She's just a walking example of a happy person. She does her job excellently and finds pleasure in delivering clean clothes, shining shimmering bathroom, and savory food. She is such a blessing to our family. Thank You Lord for Ate Pearls. Sana magtagal siya sa'min. Hihi






Sunday, June 1, 2014

Dreams Do Come True

The best person to affirm that statement is my good friend and sister in Christ, Ishi. At the start of this year, we had a date and talked about our plans for this year. She said she wanted to go out of the country so she can earn more and help her family. She started applying in March and barely two months after, she flew to Taiwan.

If you would know, you would say that it's not just a story but a beautiful testimony of God's grace. Ishi loves to serve the Lord. She's always willing to do whatever the Lord asks her to accomplish. There are times when situations become tough for her, but she never forgets that the Lord is there to see her through. We always remind each other that the Lord in never blind to our sacrifices.
God doesn't miss anything. He knows perfectly well all the love you've shown him... Hebrew 6:10
When we learned that she will be leaving soon, we spent as much time together as we could. Ishi has always been there for me no matter what. She even spent a night with me in the hospital when I was sick and sad to leave Katy at home. Hay...I will definitely miss her.

Whenever I feel sad because of the years we will spend apart, the Lord simply reminds me that Ishi is in His good hands. That this is His answer to Ishi's prayers. And so I feel comforted, inspired, and grateful at the same time.


with the "lolas" (photo from Gail)

Katy enjoys Ninang's company just like everyone else
Last sleepover before Taiwan

Iiyak na si Ishi :D
 
Last na babye na talaga

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Sleeping Beauty

I couldn't sleep last night because I was not comfortable sleeping in between Katy and Totskie. Not wanting to let time become wasted, I looked at Katy and marvelled at her pretty face. Suddenly she grabbed my shirt and embraced me. Time stood still and I was lost in that beautiful moment. 

I love you too baby. You are my greatest gift.


Friday, May 16, 2014

God is present*

Today is our last day of stay is Cebu. I just can't help but feel attached to this place where so many firsts have happened.

Over a decade ago, I attended my first ILC here in Cebu. It was a life changing experience. I spent most of my time then reflecting and praying. And until now I could still recall my learnings from the talks I've heard in the conference.

Two years ago, I came back to Cebu for our honeymoon. We attended the mass at the Basilica and prayer for a baby. And soon enough, that prayer was granted.

And this week, we came back to Cebu together with the answer to our prayer-Kaitlin. It's her first time to ride the plane! Surely she won't remember a thing but Totskie and I will never forget. This afternoon we came back to the Basilica and said our thanksgiving prayers.

So what's next for us, Cebu?:) 

hashtagsarapbuhay:)

*Jerusalem will be told: “Don’t be afraid. Dear Zion, don’t despair. Your GOD IS PRESENT among you, a strong Warrior there to save you. Happy to have you back, he’ll calm you with his love and delight you with his songs. Zephaniah 3:17 MSG




Thursday, May 15, 2014

Thank You pa din

We went to Cebu because I would compete for a Best Paper competition. And I lost. I admit that I was sad about it. I prayed an honest prayer to God about it and ended it with an offering of sacrifice for somebody I love so much. I felt peace right there and then. God is never blind to our sacrifices. God is always answering us with a "yes" in various forms. Come on God!

my default sources of joy

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Team Tome in Cebu

Super saya lang ng pakiramdam na wala akong iiwan sa byahe ko ngayon. Thank you Lord for my job and opportunity to travel and bring my family. 


Sunday, May 4, 2014

Flying

By this time next week, Kaitlin will have her first plane ride. :D We are just so grateful that at her young age, she would be able to travel with us. And we'll be going back to where Mommy and Daddy had their honeymoon. I know she will not remember our trip but somehow, the experience will plant seeds of love, joy, and security in her heart.

See next week Cebu!!! Thank You Lord in advance!!!


Thursday, May 1, 2014

Point to Jesus

Kaitlin just woke up from her morning nap. I carried her in my arms and we faced the mirror. She is usually fond of looking at her reflection in the mirror. However, she pointed her finger towards the image of Jesus hanging above the mirror. She kept on doing that several times. When she saw the angel figurine near the image, she also pointed at her blabbering syllables I could not comprehend. Or did I? Because I suddenly thought, she was dreaming about Jesus and angels. And so I told her, she's so blessed to have such dreams. Because I too had a vivid dream about Jesus when I was a child. In the dream, Jesus and I were running after each other in the fields. We were laughing and running under sunshine. Thanks to Kaitlin, who pointed Jesus' image, I was reminded of the best dream I have ever had.

Then this morning, when she woke up, she pointed to Jesus again. And we started our day with a prayer.

Thank You Lord that at Katy's young age, she can effortlessly remind us of Your love.

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Inspiration

God asked me to do something today and I got so excited! Thank You Lord for giving me such task. When I'm done, I'll blog long about it promise.:)) Thank You Lord in advance for the success of this project. Bwahaha!

Really, mom?!? -Katy

Monday, April 28, 2014

Transform

And He did transform the situation. Thank You Lord. :,)

Sunday, April 27, 2014

What to thank for today?

I don't know if it's writer's block or my bad headache. I had to dig deep to think of something to write about today. Well, everything is normal and nothing spectacular happened today.

And yes, gratitude must be our default emotion. Whenever I tell myself that, Katy's face fill my mind. She is soooo adorable. Every night, I stare at her face and thank the Lord for such beautiful gift. She's indeed my default gratefulness reminder. I thank God for her kisses, for our embraces, our nursing moments, our church date this afternoon, our exchange of giggles, and our common love for Totskie. Haaaay, motherhood is sooo awesome. I know that I'm not a perfect mom, and I will never be, but I'll do my best to be the best mom for Kaitlin. I know I'm made for this. God made me to be loving mom, and so I am. I'll be.

Thank You Lord for making me a mom everyday.


Saturday, April 26, 2014

Psalm 143:8

Google this: Psalms constant love. It's overwhelming. The psalms sing about His constant love. And this verse is my favorite:

Remind me each morning of your constant love,
    for I put my trust in you.
My prayers go up to you;
    show me the way I should go.

That's from chapter 143 (i love you), verse 8 (infinity/constant). Wow.

Thank You Lord for Your constant love.

and this is my constant blessing <3

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Transform

1. God's msg: In impossible situations, don't despair. Just have faith and call on the Holy Spirit to transform the situation.  

2. God's guidance. I did the task of four persons in one day. Whew!

3. Katy is clingy to me today.:D


4. Answered prayer: Totskie got an invitation for a job interview.

5. God's providence.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Only I can fill your days


Empty Space
Featuring Josh Imperial with John Paulo Reyes, Alberto Antonio, Jr., Angelo Ampil
lyrics by: Johnny Go, SJ
music by: Manoling Francisco, SJ


There's an empty space in your distant gaze,
and you may look away, the void still stays.
There's a hollow part in your weary heart,
and though you try again, no smile can hide your pain.
Fear not the night within. That's where My light begins,
so you may one day see My face. Only I can fill your days.

There's a raging storm in your broken soul,
and how you wish away your troubled days.
There's an open door at your deepest core,
and though you lose your way you'll still come home someday.

Fear not the noise within, that's where My voice begins,
so you may one day hear My song. Only I can still your storms.

There's an empty room, there's a hidden wound:
this heart that burns for you, if only you knew.
You're the missing part in My yearning heart,
and I will stay around until the day you're found

May this, My whispered song,
lead you to come back home
till we're no longer far apart.
Then will your laughter fill My heart.

Mama

Kaitlin has been saying "Papa" for so many months now and I admit I'm so jealous about that. I've been teaching her to say "Mama" but she only mumble "Mmmm" in between cries when she's sleepy or hungry.

Until this evening. She saw me after my long evening bath and she cried "MAMA!!!!" with full drama effects (slowmo, aboutocryface, backgroundmusic?). My heart stopped and I ran towards her. This made her happy (or I just looked funny being so OA) and so she giggled when I hugged her.

Hay happy Easter. Thank You Lord!!!

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Sisterhood

friendship to the nth power=sisterhood

Focus

on love. on loving. on being loved. because that was His focus when He did the hardest part of it all. 

Monday, April 14, 2014

heart on Your heart and my eyes on Yours


Stay and Wait
Hillsong

Who spoke the Earth and sky to form
Who sets the sun and calls the dawn
Who breathed me out of dust to life
The will to trust or run and hide

I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You

Who loved me through my rebel way
Who chose to carry all my shame
Who breaths in me with endless life
The king of glory Jesus Christ

I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You

God of wonder and God of grace
Let my soul stand always to praise You
Fix my eyes on Your perfect way
And I'll never look back

I will stay should the world by me fold
Lift up your name as the darkness falls
I will wait and hold fast to your word
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You


Who lifts the poor and heals the blind
Who trampled death for all mankind
Who stands for all with arms stretched wide
My King forever Jesus Christ

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Fasting

It's Holy Monday and I just started my Facebook fast. So don't expect Katy pics from my Fb account today until Saturday. :p

And living like there's no Facebook is quite fun! hehe. I think I would be able to finish a book or two during the break. 

I just thank God for Totskie who initiated that we fast something for the holy week. He advised me not to fast food because I'm breastfeeding. 

Thank you Lord for this time of the year that we are reminded to tune out the noises around us and focus on Him alone.  


selfie with Katy before going to Palm Sunday mass

Saturday, April 12, 2014

it's a happy day

april 12. i've been in ISAAA for exactly 4 years. wow. kung high school lang yun, graduate na ako!;) i thank God for my job. because He placed me here, i was able to visit 3 countries in SE asia for free! i also had the opportunity to hone my writing skills, spend only 5mins of travel to work daily, free load for communication monthly, form valuable relationships with my workmates, have an iPad, and the list goes on. just like my previous jobs, i know that this is where God wants me to be for the last 4 years of my life. 

livin' the life in ha long bay, vietnam

for this same date 2 years ago, totskie asked me to marry him under the moon and stars. insert hearts here. 

love love love

and this year, everything was just plain and simple. but still my heart overflows with gratitude. 

spent the afternoon with this cutie kiddos. priceless.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Friendships

I thank God for my high school friends and the unique bond that we share. We've been together for more or less 16 years and that is just so awesome! Whenever I go home after meeting them, I feel full. With food. With kabag. And with so much love.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Thanks for the thankfulness

I just want to say thank You to God because I am grateful for the things happening around me. Not all things are perfect, but I can still find reasons to be thankful for. He never never leaves us empty handed. We are always blessed.

My top 5 for today:
1. New yaya for Kaitlin. She will be our 6th nanny! I really pray she's the one. hihi.
2. MU with Totskie. ;p
3. Ching's email
4. Book: Starting Your Marriage Right (must-read!!!)
5. Kaitlin's smiles


Monday, March 24, 2014

extravagant love

No greater love have I ever known
You considered me a friend
And captured my heart again


going up the mountain

if i had a choice last monday, i would not go to vietnam. it was very heartbreaking to leave kaitlin and totskie. kaitlin is still dependent on me because she's exclusively breastfeeding while totskie has a painful eye infection. but i had to go.

day before that i heard from the mass about Jesus going up to the mountain to pray. in dawned on me that vietnam will be my mountain. i have been very busy with work and with kaitlin that i had less time for myself and for reflection.

i took this time to seek God more. i took this time to feel Him. i took this time to let Him pamper me and be His baby once again.

thank You Lord for loving me this way. You complete US.

my view while writing this post

Sunday, March 16, 2014

I just have to

I'll be leaving for Vietnam tomorrow morning. I'll be leaving my family behind. Kaitlin will have no mommy for 5 days and it breaks my heart. Yes, I'm thankful for my trip. I just have to say that I'll be missing her so much, as well as her daddy. 

dinner date before my trip

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Done done!

Just submitted my last daily report. Grabe napaiyak ako sa galak! God is awesoooome!

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Finally

...I'm ALMOST done sending media reports twice a day! I'll be sending my last bidaily report later and I can sleep soundly thereafter. But oh, I have to finish  start my presentation for our Hanoi meeting next week. Can you please count how many pimples I have now?

But then, I still thank God for being with me intimately this passed month. It was the toughest month of the year, and yet I felt God was just beside me. Thank You lang po talaga. Thanks for my job. Thanks for my very appreciative bosses. Thanks for my very supporting husband. Thanks for my bundle of joy named Kaitlin. Thanks for a strong desire that sprung up just last night. Thanks for all these intense feelings of gratitude.

I have to admit that there were days when I did not feel so grateful. Especially during those times that all I wanted to do was embrace Totskie and Kaitlin. But then the Lord kept on reminding me that He's there. That he's never blind or insensitive of what I was going through. His assurance of better days ahead embraced me and held me up to THIS day and moment.



Basta thank You Lord. Thank you. Words aren't enough.


P.S. Read my hubby's blog! I'm a proud wifey.