Saturday, December 24, 2016

Simple Joy

It's the simplest Christmas we've ever had for years. We stayed home with our family and just enjoyed food together. With a baby who constantly wants to be by my side, I also find time to spend with the Celebretor. As I bring my baby to sleep, I offer songs of praise to Him. While she sleeps, I pray and seek to know Him more. When my baby is having fun, I delight in God. This is Christmas. Simple and full of joy. 

Thank You, Lord, for the unanswered prayers. Thank You for the better presents you offer. Happy birthday, Jesus! 

my daily Christmas presents

Friday, October 7, 2016

Girly Date

Totskie was out for work the whole day so Katy had to stay with me in the office after her class. I decided to turn this day to be our girly date. And it has been a memorable day.

We ate lunch in the coffee shop, right beside the fish pond. We shared a plate of chicken alfredo. I shared the garlic bread with the fish. She had fun throwing bread crumbs on the pond while we were eating. 


Then she said she wanted strawberry or violet ice cream. We went to the cafeteria to look for ice cream but before she saw the freezer, she found Yakult. I got a cone of ice cream. When we sat to dine, she saw my ice cream and ate it. She drank Yakult in between bites. 



After work, we rode the tricyle and she said, "This is so much fun!" I told her that the vehicle is called a space rocket. She has been asking me to make her ride one after she saw a space rocket in Peppa Pig.

We went to my mom's house where Karis and Alika were waiting for us. They played together. I turned on the music and played nursery rhymes and the likes. We started rocking out singing on top of our lungs with so much glee. Yes, I was having fun too! I wanted to capture the moment using my phone but just decided to enjoy every minute with them. 

She has some tantrums before falling asleep because she was too tired. Now she's sleeping on my chest and I'm savoring the precious moments we had today. I look forward to more girly dates with her and Karis.

Thank You Lord, I'm Katy and Karis' mom.




Monday, August 8, 2016

The morning after

The next morning (after my this morning post), God answered my prayers. It was the day I was praying for for months. Our yaya finally came. And since she came, I've never been this thankful for a yaya! She's a real angel and she has made the following mornings (til evenings) so much better for me and my family. She's been with us for two weeks (which is my observation period to know if the yaya is ok or not) and so far she has been consistently goooood. I just gave her a list of tasks and she does everything professionally. I pray that God would bless us more so we could also bless her more.


Thank You, Lord, for Rose!

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

This morning

This morning is similar with all the previous mornings since we had Karis and no yaya. The sun shone, and we were already up but trying to bribe Karis with toys so we can still close our eyes for a few minutes. Thanks, Karis. Then in the next few minutes we were up and Karis used that time to poop. Katy woke up crying. She also felt her poop coming. We went downstairs and I checked their temperature because they've been sick for days. Both have fever. Oh my.

Fast forward to about an hour (I cleaned them, I put Karis to sleep, Daddy bought breakfast and cooked, Daddy fed Katy, I fixed the laundry, I took a bath, kids took meds), Katy vomited while taking his fourth cup of medicine. Karis pooped again and it leaked on her panties and my office clothes. Lord, please have mercy.

With all these happenings, I couldn't say "Thank You, Lord" easily. But I searched God's face in my head and told Him, "You know what's happening. Please take control."


Thursday, July 7, 2016

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

So many things

...happened...are happening...will happen. Sometimes it feels like I need to catch my breath.

We just moved in to another house. We still don't have babysitter. Katy was sick. I've got a paper to finish. I will be out of the country for five days, which will be the first time that Karis won't have her mommy beside her at night. *Inhale. Exhale.*

Lord, You are in control. Please take the lead. 

My kids place me back to sanity. Their love reminds me to just keep on moving forward and love.




Wednesday, May 25, 2016

On the Verge

Just when I thought that all things are failing, a deep prayer has been answered. Thank You Lord. My trust in You is limited yet Your grace is beyond measure. Sunny days ahead. 


Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Goodbyes

Last month, my aunt (wife of my mom's brother) passed away. She's like a grandmother to me because when I was a kid, I would spend days in their house. She cooked the best pancit sotanghon in the world. I will never forget how she made me feel loved. There was this one time when I had terrible cough. There was a party in their house and I wasn't allowed to eat ice cream. What she did was she let the ice cream thaw so I could eat it. It was the best ice cream cum sopas I've ever had.

Years passed and I got to have my own family. She taught me how to clean bathroom tiles (put chlorine in sprayer. genius, right?). She helped us move from my parent's house to another and to the house we have now. 

I will never forget the big hugs we had whenever we met. 

Tita Ely, I miss you.

And then two days ago, my uncle (husband of my mom's sister) also joined our Creator. 

It was a double blow for our family.

Tito Paeng is the life of every family party we had. He would always say that I'm his favorite niece from my mother (I don't have a sister). He would sing songs and dedicate them to my aunt. When I graduated from college, he said that I would go places. He was proud of me. He believed in me. He was always smiling. 

Tito Paeng, why so soon? 

I thank the Lord for their lives that touched mine thru the years. I'm certain that they both have lived a full life. 


Wednesday, May 11, 2016

My heart right side up

It's pouring. Inside. Concern after concern. Almost there at the bottom. But I'm still holding on to God so I wouldn't hit the ground.

I listened to "Jesus at the Center of it All" to strengthen my grip. Realizations came. Jesus is the focus. Other else, such as these problems, are just at the blurry background. Jesus is my focus. 

It's ok that I'm troubled with so many things such as finances, career, parenting, marriage, and everything else off center. It's ok, as long as I seek Jesus amidst all of these. He's in control.


Tuesday, April 19, 2016

End of maternity leave

Tomorrow, I'll go back to work. 

I'm feeling a good mix of emotions. Of course, I feel sad that I will spend more waking hours away from my girls. *snifsnif* I'm also excited to get my life back as a career woman. I'm also worried about how I would be able to fulfill my tasks as a mother, a wife, a housekeeper, a daughter, an entrepreneur and an employee in 24 hours. It's just insanely insufficient for the tasks at hand.

But whatever happens, my family will always go first runner up, after my God. I'll strive to be more clingy to God every day, and then I'll be the best in every area of my life. 

Tonight, I surrender to Him the days ahead. I don't know what's ahead, but my God knows everything very well. He'll go ahead of me so I can walk unafraid of what is to come. He'll hold me and gently guide me all the way. 


Friday, April 8, 2016

Rest to restart

46. more than an hour of afternoon nap
47. craft time with Katy
48. finished my tiklupin and planstahin
49. last few days of maternity leave
50. heart-to-heart talk with Karis

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Drive

41. Drive to write something good.
42. Selecta's quezo pastillas ice cream (i want more now!!!)
43. My super baet baby Karis 
44. My cousin agreed to babysit my kids for over a month 
45. Last few days of maternity leave 😭

Monday, March 28, 2016

Rise up

36. Kerygma Lenten Recollection
Last year, my mom started joining us in the Feast through KLR. Since then, our relationship was healed and became even better! 



This year's KLR gave me the much needed retreat from all the hassles of giving birth, mothering a toddler and a newborn, and being a wife to Totskie. Somebody gave us free VIP tix so we were seated near the stage, and so the worship was intense! I also got to serve by writing an article for the bulletin. Hay praise God for LOJ!



37. Yes, Light of Jesus Ministry. 
So blessed to be part of this community. I feel so at home and loved. Hope our family can serve more when the kids are older. 

38. Prophecies. 
The Feast builders delivered some prophecies during the KLR. I felt that two are mine-I'll be a best-selling author and a person I love will change and serve God big time!


39. Time at home.
Finally, we're home. Finally cleaned the house, washed dishes and bottles, fixed and washed clothes, among other tasks.

40. Karis learned to use a milk bottle.
That means liberation!

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Thank You

31. opportunity to serve God thru writing for The Feast and Kerygma Lenten Recollection

32. Karis had no allergic reaction to vaccination yesterday

33. Karis is now 5.2kg!


34. New books to read

35. God's messages every day

Quick and complete

That's how God forgives. And so must we.


Tuesday, March 1, 2016

To Grow Everyday

Just watched a video about a mom saying that she'll strive to know God everyday so she can be a better mom for her child. And it hits me to the core. Tears are now falling from my eyes. 



Every night, Katy and I pray together. Our prayer goes like this:

Dear God,
Thank You for this day. 
Thank You for Mommy, Daddy, and Baby Karis.
Thanks for the love that we share.
Thank you for the food that we eat, the house that we live in, and for all the people who love us.
Please forgive us from our sins, and change us to be better persons.
May Your angels be by our side to protect us and guide us.
May we always be healthy and strong.
We pray that may we all grow to love You more than anyone and anything in this world. Amen.

The last line is my favorite. I always say it with full conviction. And the video just told me to work on my relationship with God everyday so I can be the mom that I've dreamed to be and the wife that will bless my marriage.


Friday, February 26, 2016

One month

My baby love turns one month old today! I praise and thank God for healing her, for providing for her needs, and for keeping me sane these days. Karis is a good girl, doesn't cry so much, and easier to take care of compared to other newborns...this is exactly what I've prayed for about her. 


Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Gratitude Adjusts Attitude

(photo from Proverbs 31 FB page)

26. my high school barkada/mommy support group. we are so active in viber because most of us are new moms. we exchange experiences and consult concerns. so blessed to have these girls 24/7 especially while battling baby blues! 

27. gestational hypertension. i was diagnosed with such post-partum. my average bp is high since i was in labor. it was a wake up call to change my lifestyle. we ate more healthful food. i also try my best to control my emotions, which is the harder part. i always remind myself not to let negative emotions linger or else.

28. sun life. we've learned a lot about finance since totskie became a financial advisor. i believe that these new learnings will also change our attitude about money and end up having healthier wealth management.

29. my mom baked my fave pastry bar-white choco brownies! so sweet! 

30. my helpful hubby. i don't demand so much from him in terms of taking care of karis because he's working and when he's not, he plays with katy. but still, he offers to carry karis while i eat or nap. last night, i needed to have several trips to the rest room due to upset stomach. so i woke him up to look after karis. 

Sunday, February 21, 2016

New

26. new challenge for Totskie (new quota)
27. restored friendship
28. katy's improved speech
29. jadine (lels)
30. my mom's pastries

Baby Love

My love for Karis keeps on growing and growing each day. When I was about to give birth, I was too worried about how would Katy feel when Karis comes out, and that my excitement for having another baby was quite lower that the first time I was pregnant. But now, my heart aches with affection when I stare at Karis. She's truly heaven-sent!


Living in Love

Yesterday, our neighbors was shouting with so much vengence and hate towards her daughter-in-law. She was so angry that she was shouting on top of her lungs and was nearly hysterical. Really. I'm not exaggerating. Such scenario is happening almost every day in their house. There are times when the father curses his children for petty reasons. And I pity them. Their house is so full of hatred. Every time I hear them like this, I also feel bad about them. But yesterday, I gave up that feeling. I turned on Spotify, played worship songs and maxed out the volume of my phone. I chose to fill our home with love. 

Living in love is now my new calling. Whenever Katy would disobey me (which is common at her age), I remind myself to choose love. Whenever Totskie would fail to make me feel loved, I avenge myself by expressing my love more than usual. I admit that it's a hard calling but I know that God has enabled me to do it because He fills me with so much love. 


"God is love. When we take up permanent residence in a life of love, we live in God and God lives in us. This way, love has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so that we’re free of worry on Judgment Day—our standing in the world is identical with Christ’s. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love."

1 John 4:18 MSG

Friday, February 19, 2016

On the Wings of Lurve

21. easier breastfeeding with karis 
22. siesta
23. surprise visit from family
24. Totskie's new haircut *kilig*
25. otwol. yehehes!

Thursday, February 18, 2016

PUSH List

I was reading the story of Courageous Caitie, a 3yo kid battling rare disease. She's going thru a lot of tests and pains and I couldn't imagine how these resonate to her parents' hearts. When Karis was born sick, I cried so much just watching the nurses insert heplock on her hands and feet. What more pain for them who have to endure watching their daughter face an unknown disease? However, they make the story simple. They believe that God is in full control of the situation. 

This led me to create a PUSH (pray until something happens) list and Caitie is written on it. 

On a lighter note, I just wrote everything I want in the list, including new milk bottles for Katy. 😉 Because God asks for what I want, I answered Him. Lord ha. 

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

back to the list

16. sleep. yes, i'm sleep-deprived yet i still get to sleep. :) that's a whole lot better that not being able to sleep at all.

17. our house. i feel so comfy here more than any place.

18. new helper. finally! answered prayer it is. 

19. a month off from work. and still getting paid. ;p 

20. my dream to be a better writer. and getting better pay. wehehe.

My dependable love*

Giving birth is never easy. Post-partum is equally challenging. I've been emotional lately about everything. And this led me to realizing that the Lord is just beside me, holding my hand in every struggle that I face. He's the only One I can depend on and will never ever let me down. 



*And me? I’m singing your prowess, shouting at cockcrow your largesse, For you’ve been a safe place for me, a good place to hide. Strong God, I’m watching you do it, I can always count on you— God, my dependable love.

Psalm 59:16-17 MSG

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Home goals

At the start of the year, I specifically prayed for three things for our house: new curtains, sofabed, and aircon. I prayed that God would give these to us after I give birth (because we are still saving our money for hospital bills). 

This morning, we went to Robinsons Town Mall to while waiting for our turn in our weekly check up with the OB. And lo and behold, the curtains are on sale!!! Most of the curtains are worth PHP200. I continued searching and found cheaper ones, just a foot shorter, but still fit our windows. The price tag says they are PHP149.50. I took 4 pieces for our room and sala, which still have the same curtains we had when we transferred months ago. At the counter, I found out that the price is much lower! They are just worth PHP134.50! 

Felt super thankful to God about this. It's a simple prayer and He granted it in a simple way. Parang, "O gusto no ng kurtina? Eto para s'yo, mura na maganda pa!" 😉

Monday, January 18, 2016

I'm ready

Yes, I'm ready to pop! Yesterday, I already filed my maternity leave from work. Thank God for my loving boss and workmates who support me all the way. 

And so I finished all pending house chores so that if ever Karis decides to come out soon, our house is also ready. 

We are still praying for a helper though, because we will surely need someone to wash the clothes and clean the house while we're busy with Karis and Katy.

I am so excited! I'm wondering how Karis looks like. Will she look like Daddy (again), Mommy or Ate Katy? We'll our main prayer is that she would be very healthy and strong. 

So Baby Karis, see you soonest! Mommy is waiting for you to be in her arms!

Friday, January 15, 2016

Wake up

I've been having trouble sleeping at night because of my big tummy. I usually feel sleepy at around 12 midnight, wake up at 2am, then sleep by 5am. This makes me feel lethargic in the morning. But I always try to wake up when Katy wakes up. She's the sweetest when she wakes up and before she sleeps.

This morning, I was woke up when she held my face. She fixed my hair and took away my eye dirt. She said, "Mommy? Boo boo? Sakit to?" Awww that's sooo sweet. 

That's why everyday, I look forward to waking up with her. She's my constant blessing.

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Not yet ready

Just came from my OB for our weekly check up. Baby is doing good, but not yet ready. And so is Mommy! I still have a short list of things to do such as finish a paper (which I will accomplish today), clean the house, find a helper, prepare the bassinet, and help daddy get clients for this month. All of these, of course, can be set aside if Karis decides to get out anytime. I just want to enjoy some sweet time for myself and with Daddy and Katy before our second princess arrives. ;)

Meanwhile, I want to savor this moment to thank God for:
16. the inspiration to write for The Feast bulletin
17. my OB, who hopes with me that I will have vaginal birth after CS
18. God's love that is sooo enough for me to get thru any hardship
19. Katy's sweet kisses and comforting hugs
20. God's provision for my hospital bill

As I have written in my previous post, I was worried over our birthing fund because some money/opportunities that we've been expecting never came. There were also unexpected expenses that came in just months away from the due date so our savings was stripped off. But our loving God surprised us with unexpected blessings as well, which I will forever be grateful for. Grabe lang si God magprovide. Generous is an understatement for Him! Thank You po!!!

Not yet ready

Just came from my OB for our weekly check up. Baby is doing good, but not yet ready. And so is Mommy! I still have a short list of things to do such as finish a paper (which I will accomplish today), clean the house, find a helper, prepare the bassinet, and help daddy get clients for this month. All of these, of course, can be set aside if Karis decides to get out anytime. I just want to enjoy some sweet time for myself and with Daddy and Katy before our second princess arrives. ;)

Meanwhile, I want to savor this moment to thank God for:
16. the inspiration to write for The Feast bulletin
17. my OB, who hopes with me that I will have vaginal birth after CS
18. God's love that is sooo enough for me to get thru any hardship
19. Katy's sweet kisses and comforting hugs
20. God's provision for my hospital bill

As I have written in my previous post, I was worried over our birthing fund because some money/opportunities that we've been expecting never came. There were also unexpected expenses that came in just months away from the due date so our savings was stripped off. But our loving God surprised us with unexpected blessings as well, which I will forever be grateful for. Grabe lang si God magprovide. Generous is an understatement for Him! Thank You po!!!

Monday, January 11, 2016

When prayers go up, blessings come down*

Last Sunday, Katy's picture was part of Bro. Jon's talk on WONDER. He said that we should say more often to make our lives more awesome this year. When he was preparing for his talk, he saw Katy's picture in Facebook and he said, "Wow! This is so cute!" He believes that Totskie and I, as Katy's parents, have unlimited WOWs because of her. And just like any other parent, God says WOW whenever he sees us.



Thank you, Lord for all the WOWs of this day:
11. my new planner, my devotional, and my cash flow notebook
12. I'm become less worried about taking care of two babies soon :p
13. Aaron (Totskie's nephew who is now staying with us)
14. God used Katy at her young age to make others feel WOW
15. God's love completes me.

*Rey Ortega, Didache 2016

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Reminder: Be holy.

Thank You Lord for...
6. Daddy's new haircut. Kakileg!
7. Productive day at work. Isa na lang pwede na manganak!
8. Katy's appetite is back! Quota din sa pagpoops. 😷
9. Viber chat with friends.
10. Totskie's wallet. We couldn't find it this morning. We searched for a couple of minutes to no avail. So we decided to go back to the places we've been yesterday. Before leaving, Totskie had to pee while I was left standing beside our Christmas tree. I prayed hard that we would find it when we go back to Save More. Then I looked at the drawer beside me and wondered why it was slightly open. I opened it fully and miracle of miracles, I found my husband's wallet. 


Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Hello 2016 Miracles!

It's another year and we're all excited because God promises more miracles for this year. This year starts with lots of blessings, so better be thankful all year round. 

Today, I thank God for...
1. Katy's default facial expression: Smiley. She did not get this from me or her Daddy. This is surely designed by Her Maker.

2. Dinner out with my loves. And we chose to eat healthful food over our burger craving.

3. I'm feeling energetic today. I felt sickly yesterday due to a terrible headache and high BP. But today I'm so productive! Worked on the paper I've been planning to finish since last month; cleaned our kitchen and comfort room; washed diapers; and fixed our clothes. I wanted to do more but my tummy had practice contractions, signalling me to slow down. 

4. The practice contractions. It made me realize that I'll give birth soon so some things should be accomplished this week.

5. Watching Katy and Daddy play. Priceless.