Wednesday, May 25, 2016

On the Verge

Just when I thought that all things are failing, a deep prayer has been answered. Thank You Lord. My trust in You is limited yet Your grace is beyond measure. Sunny days ahead. 

Wednesday, May 18, 2016


Last month, my aunt (wife of my mom's brother) passed away. She's like a grandmother to me because when I was a kid, I would spend days in their house. She cooked the best pancit sotanghon in the world. I will never forget how she made me feel loved. There was this one time when I had terrible cough. There was a party in their house and I wasn't allowed to eat ice cream. What she did was she let the ice cream thaw so I could eat it. It was the best ice cream cum sopas I've ever had.

Years passed and I got to have my own family. She taught me how to clean bathroom tiles (put chlorine in sprayer. genius, right?). She helped us move from my parent's house to another and to the house we have now. 

I will never forget the big hugs we had whenever we met. 

Tita Ely, I miss you.

And then two days ago, my uncle (husband of my mom's sister) also joined our Creator. 

It was a double blow for our family.

Tito Paeng is the life of every family party we had. He would always say that I'm his favorite niece from my mother (I don't have a sister). He would sing songs and dedicate them to my aunt. When I graduated from college, he said that I would go places. He was proud of me. He believed in me. He was always smiling. 

Tito Paeng, why so soon? 

I thank the Lord for their lives that touched mine thru the years. I'm certain that they both have lived a full life. 

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

My heart right side up

It's pouring. Inside. Concern after concern. Almost there at the bottom. But I'm still holding on to God so I wouldn't hit the ground.

I listened to "Jesus at the Center of it All" to strengthen my grip. Realizations came. Jesus is the focus. Other else, such as these problems, are just at the blurry background. Jesus is my focus. 

It's ok that I'm troubled with so many things such as finances, career, parenting, marriage, and everything else off center. It's ok, as long as I seek Jesus amidst all of these. He's in control.