Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Sorry

They say that giving birth is one of the most challenging experiences a woman faces. By giving birth to two kids, I could attest how much challenging giving birth indeed is. However, this challenge only lasts for several hours or days. For me, the most challenging of all tasks is to be a parent itself.

One day, I bathed my kids at the same time thinking that my toddler would enjoy the time spent together with her baby sister. She enjoyed it so much that while I was bathing her baby sister, she started throwing water all over! I instantly got pissed and yelled at her to stop. Of course, she didn’t. She just laughed and continued her water game. I had to cover us with the shower curtain to keep the baby from the splashing water. After bath time, that’s the only time when my toddler said, “Sorry, Mommy.”

Such instances make me feel limited as a parent. I felt bad that I easily shouted at my child. I felt inefficient because I didn’t know how to make her stop. I’ve been reading about parenting but still, it seems like parenting a toddler is just impossible. Then God revealed to me the best parenting style and that is following God’s way of loving us. From then on, I searched God more every day, with the desire to know my Father better and at the same time be a better parent to my kids.

One of the best parenting lessons I’ve learned so far is that my Father forgives me on the spot. At the very moment that I sin, He is forgiving me. Thus, He does not shout at me. Yes, He feels hurt about my wrongdoing, but He chooses to see me as I am: a beautiful person that He has made. He has this reset button in His mind that erases all my dirt and shame, making me new every time. And the moment I realize this, that’s when I see His arms opened wide, waiting for me to love Him back and say, “Sorry, Father.”


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